Yesterday Reagan went to the doctor for her five year check up. I still cant wrap my head around the fact that she is 5. I remember when she was born just like it was yesterday. Anyway, just like my father used to do with me, I teased her about all the shots she was going to get. I teased her about the things the doctor was going to do- I teased her leading up to the appointment about everything. The moment her and her mother left I began to get nervous. It hit my like a ton of bricks. Just like my father, I am a bit of a catasrophizer. I began to think about all the things that could go wrong with her check up. There hasnt been any red flags, but you just never know. I was anxious and needed txt messages from Brooke about their progress. Reagan is my girl, and I didnt want anything negative to come up. With 5 girls (counting my wife) I always have someone I love to worry about. Every doctors appointment is an hour of walking on eggshells for me. You honestly can't imagine how amazing it feels to get a text message saying everything is okay. It is like winning the life lottery. I wanted nothing more than to hug her when she got home. I used to ask for a lot (ask Mom and Dad)- from Nintendo games, to Air Jordans, to clothes, cars, money etc. now I simply ask for the health of my loved ones. I want them to be happy, loved, and healthy. That is all I ask for anymore.
Yep--pins and needles. Problem is , sure it is routine, but.... It is that but when suddenly things do not look right etc. I am sure she is fine, but you are right--all that matters is their health and safety. She was in rare form last night. I do love it when she pouts when her PawPaw has to leave. Makes me feel all warm and good inside. Love Dad
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