Baby blue eyes is off to school!

So today was Baylor Grace's first day of school, ever.  This was different than Caroline or Reagan's first day this year.  Even for Caroline last year, which was her first first day of school ever, she was a year older.  Baylor Grace was actually too young for the class but they let her in because they know us, Brooke works at the school, and this will be the teacher's 3rd Ayers girl in 3 years.  I barely remember dropping Reagan off that first time when she was in the 2 year old class.  I remember she didn't talk much at that point, still going through speech therapy.  Baylor Grace, on the other, talks up a storm and you can make out a good bit of what she is saying.  She is also hell on wheels.  When we dropped Reagan off, we said to the teachers "She is a rule follower, wont cause a problem, great kid."  With Caroline it was "She is a sensitive soul, sweetheart, be gentle and she will love you back."  With Baylor Grace it is simply "Good luck."

I expect her to be a holy terror in (Ms)Estep and (Mrs)Mapplesauce's (Macintosh) class but apparently it will be delayed some.  When we left her at school today she looked lost, sad, confused, sitting alone at her desk by herself.  Which of course made me sad.  She loved the idea of getting a "pack (back) pack" and I think going with me so many times to pick up the big girls, she sort of was familiar with the location.  However, she had never been dropped off and left.  She had a look on her face that was very heartbreaking for her Daddy.  She didn't cry, she sort of just played by herself at a table.

You know as a parent you want you kids to love school, fit in, make new friends, and be safe.  That's all I can really hope for with this girl too.  So much of my life and all I care about is in that hallway right across the hall from each other.  In some ways its pretty neat that all three girls classrooms are so close.  In today's crazy world, it is also a bit scary too.  When we got home from dropping them off it was just Hadley, very odd.  On Thursday even Brooke will be gone, 4 of my 5 girls (including Brooke) will be at Seton 

Baylor Grace's friend "Camel" (Campbell) is in her class but I worry because she doesn't know anyone.  Baylor Grace never met a stranger in our house but that is in her element.  Who knows how she will do at school.  Caroline came home today talking about a boy who was mean to her and your parental instincts are to go find the 4 year old boy and beat him and his parents for making your girl sad.  But, its part of being a parent.  You have to let them go and sometimes work out their own problems.  Sometimes you have to walk away and leave them at the desk by themselves, even if your instinct is to run in and hug them.